The Awkwardness Between Them

Nayko Ayasame 1.8k words

            It is still early in the morning, the weather feel good, really fresh even a bit cold. A woman with her black long hair walking alone while listening to a music from her phone. She wear a long jeans and a casual blue skirt. She walks to her University. The beautiful melody of the song sometimes makes her pretty smile appear on her face. The song tittle is "Was So Pretty"

                  She just imagine how wonderful it would be if a special someone would sing that song for her. She never had a boyfriend like her other friend so it's so rare to hear a romantic sentences from any boys. It is not because there is no one who has a crush on her. It is just because each man who ever confessed to her simply wasn't someone she love.

               She doesn't want to put their hopes up when she isn't even interest. She want to make it clear when she likes or dislike something. Her name is Song Ji Hyo, a student  from Education of Science Departement. She is at her sixth semester now, the youngest student at her class who is on her early 20th. She is smart but not the best student. Sometime she can looks very blank, while at the other time she can act cheerfully at every moment. She is actually a softhearted girl but her appearance show otherwise.

                She can become really ignorant and didn't want to give a damn about her surrounding. It is not because she isn't care, she does care but she prefer to enjoy her own world without being disturbed by any other's business which is not related to her.

                 In the midle of her way to the class, she find a man who has a muscular body walk toward her from the opposite way. She recognize the man right away even when their distance is kinda far. She knew him and where is he heading to. They have a same destination. She almost reach their class but somehow she slow down her step just to match with his pace. She doesn’t even sure why she choose to wait for him. Their interaction is always being so awkward. But she doesn’t mind it. She doesn’t know how much slower her step was but the man that she waits is already right in front of her now.

                The man is Kim Jong Kook, the youngest lecturer of her departement. It's mean he teachs Ji Hyo at class. He is 30th years old. He has a good appereance with a muscular body and a handsome face. A tons of students adore him and being his fansgirl. Some of them show their affection by flirting on him openly and some just talk about him on his back. By using his long feet to walk, he is leading the way now while Ji Hyo following his step.

                When they almost reach the class, Jong Kook turn his head to check on the girl. But he find that she look on the other way. He sigh deeply. It is not the first time she is avoiding an eye contact with him, deliberately. He wonders why? it seem that Ji Hyo always try to distant her self from him. He know that she is a good student. She always put her full attention during the lecture. She always make an eye contact with him at class, showing how focus she was on listening. She is a great listener and observer.

          At first, he didn't realize that Ji Hyo treats him differently compare to another lecturer. But by the passing time, he recognize the awkwardness between them. She is his student and he is her lecturer, but why can't they have a common relationship like another student and lecturer?

           After sensing her awkwardess around him, he can't help but to avoid her too. He doesn’t know why? Why does he has to give an attention toward her strange behaviour? She just one of his students and not even special. Why does he have to mind about her indefferent toward him  when a ton of his other students always greet him nicely.

            He didn't want to mind her but he can't help to wonder? Doea she hate him? Is he too young to be her lecturer so she has no respect toward him? These kind of question always appear in his tought everytime he meets her.

             She always greet another lecturer nicely when she saw them, but with him? Even no eyes contact. He ever catched Ji Hyo's alteration change when she meet another lecturer before she bump to him.

             First, she will really nice to smile and bow to other profesor but when she saw him she just freeze for a while and then turn her direction to avoid eyes contact with him. Even though he doesn’t mean to avoid her too, he Just automatically follow her behavioural.

            When he saw her with her friend and need to talk about the lesson or task to them, he never even once talks to her and just ask another student. Even when she is the first student he met, he would never gives the task to her and choose to ask the next student who come after her. Somehow, he feel that he is being unprofesional for acting like that toward his student but he just doesn’t know how to act around her.

                He even doesn’t know why he need to consider about how to act toward her. He is puzzled. It has been a long time since he keep his attention to a girl after his last breakup a long time ago. His last break up is really tore his heart into a piece and because of that he consider not to say “love” again to any girl if he not even sure that he will marry her.

             He was just so tired of love story and decide to never give attention again toward any girl. But Song Ji Hyo, is he really see her as a girl and not as his student? He actually really confuse and always seeking for confirmation by asking his self.

               Their first awkwardnees  began  when Jong Kook teached in Ji Hyo class on other ordinary day. Jong Kook was explained something about how to be a good teacher and etc. He always diverting his gaze to the whole class, gazing on his student one by one to make sure that they give attention about his explanation. But he always catch one student who always give a great attention to his every explanation.

          Song Ji Hyo is always so serious of hearing whatever her lecturer say so she never turn her attention nor change her gazes to another direction except her lecturer. Jong Kook can feel that, so in order to appreciate her good behaviour of listening, he intently stare at her for a minute, showing his attention. But his very action make the two of them get a butterfly on their stomache.  Their heart suddenly beat so fast. Both of them trap into the beauty of each other eyes, Jong Kook trap into Ji Hyo beautiful big eyes while Ji Hyo adore Jong Kook smiling eyes.

           After they feel a strange feeling creeping into their chest, they swift their gaze shyly. From that day on, everytime they were around each other, they will secretly staring on the other to make sure that the other party is aware of their exsistance and looking at their direction. But it always end UP with the two of them staring at each other, again.

           Jong Kook feel that was so funny to has this kind of atmosphere with his student. When Ji Hyo is busy writing some notes on her book, he is silently staring at her. He wasn't even aware of the fact that he was smiling all the time he looking at her. Unfortunately Ji Hyo catch his action and saw that Jong Kook staring at her with his sweet smile.

          That was the start of the awkwardness between them. Jong Kook regards her as a person who keep avoiding him but the truth is Ji Hyo just too nervous and shy when he is around. She feel breathless everytime looking at Jong Kook smiling gaze. She is melting inside, But she would never ever make a confession about that.

           Ji Hyo is actually thinking that Jong Kook is really masculine. But she would never ever want to confess it. Jong Kook has a good appearance is a fact she can't deny, he is sure a handsome man. But so what? What about being handsome? Ji Hyo wouldn't want to become a member of his fangirls.

           If she fangirling a popular man it would makes she feel so unspecial. She doesn't like an acting of making a man feels that they are wonderful because a lot of girls adore them. A popular man tend to be arrogant, or so does she thinks. That was the exact reason why she can't confess when she also take an interest toward a popular Man. She doesn't  want to make them feel so high about their self. Maybe that was a silly reason for hating someone. She hate Kim Jong Kook because he is popular.

           But that's Just how Song Ji Hyo is. She look tough outside but.... On the inside she always feel insecure. When she start to like a popular one, she would start to think....

               “there’s so many girl that more beautiful than me, there’s so many girl Who is smarter than me, it’s just impossible for him to looking at my direction”

                  That's why she think that adoring a popular one is just wasting of her time. And she really dislike a feeling of broken heart. And it is the reason why she has a remorse toward a popular man.

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