DOM’S POV
Two years later********
The bright morning looks sick to me.
Scratch the bright feature.
It is as dull as fuck.
Everything is.
Including my life.
My whole world is.
The glass of hot rum on my hand has been my only comfort.
Almost my comfort.
Nothing has been my comfort.
I drown myself in my thoughts all the time.
Mostly in my drinks.
The pain is still there. Hell the pain is me.
It's been two years.
Two years since I lost her.
Two freaking years and still can't believe she is gone!
Argh!!
Fucking humans!
That fucking hunting.
I fucking blame myself for it.
I shouldn't have allowed her leave.
I should have held her back with me.
That shit wouldn't have happened.
She would still be here with me.
Fuck!
The glass on my hand is getting me angrier as I clench on it's hardness.
That very day filled my head all over again. I carried her body to the pack square.
Flashback****
The whole pack gathered as I walk towards them with my beloved Luna on my arms.
Their luna.
Their queen.
My heartbeat.
I stare at her face. Her eyes closed, her blood still dripping.
Her skin cold.
God my heart clenched the more.
I am never seeing those green nature like eyes look at me ever again. Neither am I going to see her beautiful smile.
God what have I done.
"Dad..."
Luca's voice made me look up.
My heart ached deeply.
He stare at his mother on my arms.
His eyes brimmed.
My pain increased.
He walked towards me, his eyes never leaving his mother.
"Mum?" He touch her arm.
My heart carried so much load. It is beyond heavy.
"It's the humans" Tamara said behind me.
The people murmured.
"They killed Nathan too" she cried.
"Human hunters. We should go after them at once" I heard, Marco, my Gamma say.
"We couldn't find them. They escaped somehow " Tamara said.
The people murmured the more.
I clenched my jaw.
Humans. Fucking assholes. I could kill every one of them for this.
I am surely going to.
...........
It was a black morning. Her funeral was quiet. We were all on black attire, holding black umbrellas as we take the slow rain.
The rain was like tears.
That's the image of my ripped heart. It was shedding cold tears.
I watch as they covered my wife up.
I watch as she join the dust.
This is fuck up.
So fucked up.
Her sister wailing along with others. My son is standing beside me with his mate, Clara.
Sophia was my life. All I could live for.
Now I have nothing.
"You have Luca" my wolf said.
He keeps reminding about that.
I really have to be strong for our son.
He is a part of her she left for me in this fucked up world.
Something that remind me so much of her.
Happy, he got her green eyes.
Her hair colour as well.
He is almost 50% of her.
But he is all me.
Still not enough.
I want her. I want her back.
Fuck!
Everyone left the the funeral ground after an hour, leaving only my son and I.
We stood infront of her grave, looking at it. Tears is hard to form. My heart is heavy.
Almost like a rock.
My eyes are brimming in between the dark shades covering my eyes.
Luca placed flowers on her grave.
I clench my jaw thinking about her murderers.
I will kill every human that step foot on this pack.
Those fucking bastards think they have gotten away with this.
I am going to fucking show them.
I felt a touch on my shoulder.
It's Luca.
I heave a sigh.
He make a head sigh to leave.
I look back at my wife's grave.
Hell how much I am going miss her.
My one and only mate.
Could remember when I figured she was my mate.
We were both eighteen.
We were so into each other.
It made us have a son at that age.
A son who is now my height.
God this is fucked up.
The more I think about everything the more my heart clench.
She didn't die alone.
I died too.
I nod back at my son as we head back.
This is the beginning of my death.
Life without her is death.
It is unhappiness.
Unpeaceful.
Fucking useless.
Flash back ends*******
I gulped down another liquid.
My eyes went to our pictures together on the nightstand.
She was laughing loudly at that moment.
Another picture of her, she has baby Luca on her arms.
Smiling brightly.
She always smile. Very beautiful.
Argh!
Two years!
What the fuck?!
I storm out of my room.
My wolf is aching. He wants to go out for a run.
Go out.
That's what she wanted to do. She wanted to go out. I shouldn't have let her.
I fucking shouldn't!
Argh!
"Fuck!!!!!!" I turned to my wolf form. Running as as my four limbs can take me.
I roared as I ran.
I stopped at a spot in the woods.
It was getting dark.
My heart bled thinking about her.
She has been in my mind ever since that day she died.
I regret letting her go.
I hate myself for that.
My hands ache to kill some fucking humans.
I didn't see or catch any ever since.
This is fucked up.
This is fucking....
A scent hit my nose.
I froze.
Speak of the devil.
Humans!
My eyes narrowed at the direction.
I know where I am at. Far from home but still in my territory. So they are fucking trespassing.
Sophia came to my mind.
Image of her getting shot by them came to my head.
I snarled.
Anger washed me.
I can imagine how they did it.
My claws ache to snatch the life out of the human's body.
I followed the scent.
I snarled as I make steps towards them.
I got to the part where I found three men with guns.
Hunters.
Fucking motherfuckers.
I stood behind some high plants and grasses.
Their brown jeep is packed aside. One of the men is seated on it and taking a smoke.
Another is on his feet, working on his gun.
The last one is seated on a rock laughing to the jokes they are making.
I glare at them.
The fucking nerve to be happy and making jokes after their kind killed my wife.
There is every probability that they were the ones that killed her.
I feel my heart clench to the thought.
I walk around them and towards the jeep.
Getting closer to the jeep, I climb on it. Giving them the scare of their lives.
"What....the....fuck?" One of them said.as they all look at me with wide eyes.
I glare at them.
My size is overwhelming to them.
"God it's an alpha" the third one said.
Impressive.
He knows about wolves.
Fucking hunters.
"Who cares?" The second one said aloud as he quickly cock his gun and point it at me.
"No wait" I heard the third one say.
But the second one pulled the trigger.
I was fast enough to dodge it as I pounce on him, tearing his heart out.
He screamed all through.
I grabbed the first one before he could point his gun at me.
I tear his head out with my teeth.
Blood filled my mouth.
I turned to the third one.
He is shuddering in fear.
I glare at him.
He make slow steps back.
"No.... please" he begged
Sophia came to mind the more.
They killed her without mercy.
Why the fuck should I spare him?
"Please...."
I roared.
He flinched shuddering the more.
"Sophia!"
Her name echoed in my head.
I took fast steps towards him and ripped his body apart.
He screamed till he died.
I snarled, feeling the blood on mouth.
I wanted to kill more.
I want all humans dead!
"Well well well"
I froze.
A very familiar voice.
I know that voice.
"If it isn't alpha Dominic"
Xavier.
From Loot pack. He is an enemy to Blackrock pack. Former rogue as well but he dwells around, poking on businesses that doesn't concern him.
I should kick him out already.
I turn to him.
He is shirtless but on black trousers.
I guess he transformed minutes ago.
He is smirking at me.
I glared at him.
He looked around and hummed.
"I see you just finished enjoying your party. You had fun didn't you?" He asked smirking.
I kept glaring at him.
"They are all humana as well. That's double fun. Avenging your wife huh?"
My blood boiled.
"One question old friend, did this bring her back"
My claws ached.
"It didn't did it? Cause I don't see her anywhere"
I glare at him the more.
He began laughing.
My anger passed it's peak as I let out a growl, pushing him towards the tree and pinning him to it.
"Whoa whoa easy there" he said chuckling. "Your strength is amazing though"
I returned to my human form.
He smirked.
I clench my jaw as I grip more on his neck, my claws digging into his skin.
"Give me one good reason why I shouldn't rip your head off right now" I snarled.
"Come on now, I am your old friend"
"You are not my friend, rogue. Do you fucking hear me"
"Fine. I am not."
I glare at him.
He has done nothing to me.
If he was a human, I would have torn him apart in a flash.
But he is not.
I released him aggressively.
He cleared his throat.
I walk ahead.
"You know I never gave my condolences for the lost of your beloved luna"
I stop on my track.
"She was a very good Luna. Talk of the town. Too bad maniacs like this killed her"
I managed to control my anger as I make more steps ahead.
"You are grieving and all but have you thought about the fact that maybe she wasn't actually killed by the humans as you believe she was?"
I stop on my track.
Turning to him, I glare at him.
He raise his brow.
The fuck is this motherfucker saying?
"Just thinking" he said.
"Keep your thoughts to yourself rogue. I don't fucking need it"
I walk away, changing into my wolf form. I ran back home.
Getting into my room, I pour myself a drink.
I gulped all, easing my nerves.
"Have you thought about the fact that maybe it wasn't the humans that killed her as you believe?"
I pour myself another drink and gulped.
Xavier is a maniac.
Always annoying.
I remember very well that day, taking in the strong scent of the humans.
Their scent is very strong and fucking obvious.
It is very easy to pick up.
Don't forget their fucking silver bullets.
No werewolf have them.
Of course she was killed by humans.
Is he calling me dumb?
Argh I should killed that bastard already.
A knock came on my door.
It opened and I got Luca's scent.
"Dad?"
I don't respond as he walk into my room.
"Hey dad"
"Son"
"I need your help with the pack work" he said as I pour myself some more drink again.
"I need to shower first" I said gulping the drink.
"You went for a run?"
I nod.
"Cool. I'll be waiting for you then"
"See to it that the staff get more drinks for me" I said walking towards the bathroom.
"Dad come on, drinks again? You promised to stop" he said.
"This is the last" I said entering my bathroom.
"That's what you said the first time. Now look, it's two years" I heard him say.
"Just do what I said will you?" I said putting on the showers.
I heard him go out my room as I take in the water hitting my whole body.
Could remember being under the showers with her.
It was a fucking steaming and romantic moment.
She was such a blessing to me.
I still love her.
I still miss her.
I can't stop thinking about her.
As much as I hate to say it, but Xavier was right, killing those motherfuckers didn't bring her back.
But my blood will always boil whenever I smell or sight a human.
They killed her.
She was innocent but they killed.
They killed my mate.
They snatched her away from me.
Argh!
I clench my knuckles on the wall.
These pasted two years has not been easy.
It was terror for me.
I would drown myself in work with my son.
Sometimes I would over work myself.
Next thing is my drinks.
They give temporal comfort.
I always stare at her pictures.
I rested on, and sniffed the scent of her favourite pillow till her scent disappeared.
I still know her scent.
I can't forget it.
I would cry myself to sleep every night.
I look at her side of the bed, it is empty. She always love her side of the bed.
She said it helps her stare at me easily and clearly.
Oh God.
She was my life.
Life is nothing without her.
My heart would break every single time I look and I can't find her around me.
This is torture.
Pure fucking torture.
I head out of the bathroom in my towel and another I use to dry my hair.
I picked up a scent immediately, making me look up and I see Tamara.
"Tamara?"
"Dom"
I arched my brows. "What are you doing here?"
She stare me. "I came to say hi and see how you are doing"
I continue wiping my hair. "I am doing fine as you can see"
She nods.
"How have you been?" I asked as I reach for my lotion.
She smiled "Been good."
She lost her mate too.
Hers is worst. She lost her mate and her sister.
Sophia loved her so much.
She talked about her all the time.
I remember Sophia telling me that Tamara never liked Nathan.
So I can tell she is not grieving so much about him.
Just her sister.
Like I said, I died with her.
"I brought some fruits. I don't know if you are interested " she said.
I shake my head "I am not"
She sighed. "Why do you hate me some much?"
I look at her.
She is looking at me.
I don't. I just don't associate much with her.
I should. Especially now her sister is gone.
"I don't like fruits Tamara."
She nods. "Well um.... I'll just go downstairs then and hand it all to Luca. Glad you are fine" she said smiling a little as she head out of my room.
I watch her leave.
She has always been coming here, paying Luca and I a visit.
I appreciate that but she doesn't have to.
She can visit her nephew but not me. She doesn't have to bother about me.
I heave a sigh as I apply lotion on my body.
"Can I do it for you honey?"
I froze at the familiar voice.
Sophia.
I look up, I saw no one.
I am the only one in the room.
I hear her voice all the time.
God this is insane!
My life is insane!
Why Sophia?!
Tell me why?!